sat outside the wedding working out some chords
while everyone got dressed
running down the checklist: shoes are shined and tied
and collared shirts are pressed
murmured voices buzzing brightly
calm my own noise, help unwind me
I let the light in
earlier, in jersey, stuck in traffic
with a coffee in my lap
high noon summer heatwave
ripples air across the billowing expanse
absent music, I enter daydream
and feel the static burst inside me
and then it happens,
I feel it happen:
I let the light in
I watch a year die and I forgive me
you left your body, exist more freely
I wasn't frightened thought it was heavy
the weight we shared then has all but left me
I felt it lighten